I am hoping when I next write this blog that the worst is over, the drain will be gone and my stent will be fitted. I wish I were confident of the outcome, but I will have to be patient. I am always stunned and amazed when folk who comment on this blog see me as patient and as such a positive role model for others experiencing similar.
I consider myself to be one of the most impatient people I know and as a result this has been the toughest challenge of my life to date. Longing to swim in the sea and knowing I have to wait; wanting to live life normally and not being able to fulfil that wish right now; this is really a trial by fire for me. It came out of nowhere and I have had to adjust to so much change in my lifestyle. It is hard to absorb the enormity of it all. I feel like a piece of driftwood now. Where will I land? Will I come away unscathed? Frightening for a control freak to feel that I am no longer at the steering wheel. It is with trepidation that I hand myself over yet again to the medical profession tomorrow….au revoir.
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